Partner in Crime

I don't think I realized how much living with someone would incorporate their eating habits into mine for better or worse....no for worse. I have always had the ability to change and alter how I ate and subsequently my ability to gain weight and lose it when I felt I had to when I lived alone and with my sister, because I did the decision making. In the grocery store and when eating out. So now the challenge isn't just shopping for two but everything is joint. What you make. How much you make. Where you eat. What time you eat. I'm exhausted just thinking about it. So needless to say I've been less then stellar for one year now. It's probably been closer to two

years given the time I nearly lived here and rarely set foot in my former apartment. But I'm improving my communication and taking back control. A lot of it is changing my mindset on meals. I watched a phenomenal video from someone who got me into this journey of self love. I am focusing on one meal at a time. One day at a time. Screw what is going to happen in a week, or a month, and lord knows I know nothing about what a year from now will look like. But if a can just get that next meal right....nail it. Well that's all that matters. And if I can just give my all into my next workout, then nothing else matters. Who cares about tomorrow. And well, it's only been a few days but it's been the easiest strategy I've tried so far. So fingers crossed it works.

And I need to improve the communication piece of it. I've lived alone so long that the read my mind aspect is strong in my habits. And I don't know if I want it to be. I'm hoping practice makes perfect? Sounds about right.