Pure joy

I am riding an endorphin high this week. I have enjoyed being off service and having limited call and taken full advantage. I've worked out every day this week! I have stuck to my plan of eating a healthy and balanced meals. I have gotten two interview offers for fellowship. I have finished one paper and started on a second to submit for publication. Life is full of joy!! And I fully think my working out and sense of feeling stronger has given me the chemical high to enjoy this all. And it seems joy begets more joy. The more I do good things in my life and for my life, the more I feel they are being returned to me. Now this isn't to say at some point, likely in the near future I will have some sort of set back or have something not work out. But I'm hoping that this high will help cushion that blow. It feels good, as if I'm in control of my life.

I went to the farmer's market this morning to continue my conscious, healthy lifestyle choices....and because it's a place I go to make me happy in general. I felt pure joy walking around. It feels like it's been a long time that I can truly say that. And that's not to say I don't have stressors and challenges right now, very few people can say they have none. But the choices I've made have minimized the ones that are not worth spending my time on. I don't have to hate myself or feel guilty for poor food choices or being lazy. I have the time and I've invested it in my health and happiness. I've celebrated the amazing things this body can do and the improvements that I've been able to make in just a single week. How amazing is that? And I did get one rejection for fellowship and I suspect a second impending given the length of time it's taking them to respond. However that is part of life. I will get into the fellowship I belong it, and that's not every single one. I've been rejected during my applications to med school, residency, and nearly everywhere in life. It's a part of how we learn and how we develop ourselves. But the goodness and energy I am sending out is definitely coming back. And that is a powerful lesson to remember. Because when things go bad....and the pendulum always swing both ways, I will need this strength and energy. And I hope to not only use it to recover

but help bring myself back to pure joyfulness. Because that feeling is priceless.